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Music meme. Why not.
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Music meme taken from Miss-Bow. I am bored. Why not.
Rules: Put your playlist on shuffle and answer the questions with the title of the song playing.
And two other things I'm just ignoring.
Questions (and, well, answers):
How are you feeling today?
Whitefall/Book—Greg Edmonson.
Uuuuuuh.... like I'm entering a whimsical western that then becomes hostile. I guess.
Where will you arrive in your life?
Diamond Eyes—Shinedown
A warzone.
How do your friends see you?
Leave it Alone –Disturbed
I-
Oh.
Well then.
Will you get married?
Eye of the Tiger – Survivor
After a hunt. Or maybe a training montage.
What song fits your best friend?
Without You – Three Days Grace
Apparently they value me a lot. Like. A LOT.
Which is weird, considering how they also try to leave me alone... Hmm.
How's your life?
N/a Ok – USS
Guess I'm not A-okay right now.
What's your philosophy?
The Animal—Disturbed
Restrain your inner beast until it takes control and leads you to destroy everything. Yes. Sounds about right. Generally a good policy.
I'd add a bit more nihilism, though~
What's your friends' strong point?
Evil Angel—Breaking Benjamin
Being angelic and pure companions in the worst of environments. And also occasionally a bit cruel.
Lovely friends I have, so far. My kinda people~
How does everyone see you?
I Am Human—Van Canto
As a human. Well, that's a relief. I thought they saw me as a giant cabbage.
Will your life be happy?
The Downfall of Us All—A Day to Remember
Well, apparently I somehow doom everyone. So.
...Yes.
Yes it will.
Yes it will.
How do your friends really see you?
100 Doses—Cliff Martinez
As a hundred doses. Now, the question becomes, of what?
People who secretly desire you?
Paint the Seconds—Chevelle
Weird, artistic people into blending and fusing.
Hmm.
Well then. X'D
How can you be happy?
Getting Away With Murder—Papa Roach
I have nothing to say.
Just. Nothing.
...
...How did they know...?
Will you have children?
Perfect Insanity—Disturbed
Either the implication is that the implication is madness, or those kids are gonna be traaaaumatiiiiiiiized~
What's your biggest secret?
The Diary of Jane—Breaking Benjamin
Jane's Diary, of course.
I had to steal it to use as mine since mine was stolen, necessitating its remote destruction.
What's your worst enemy's song?
Rip Tide—Sick Puppies
Apparently my worst enemy is a dangerous bit of water by the title, or a rebellious punk sort who lives by their own rules by meaning.
...OR A REBELLIOUS PUNK BIT OF WATER.
What's your personality?
Feuer Frei—Rammstein
"Fire at Will," in german. Apparently I'm free willed and unrestrained.
...
...
God, my unrestrained will must be really apathetic...
The song they'll play at your wedding is...
Morgenstern—Rammstein
A song about ugliness, wishing for beauty, and seeing true beauty inside. Interesting.
The song they'll play at your funeral is...
The Logical Song—Supertramp
Apparently my imagination and sense of wonder was crushed by the system, making me a terrible, logical cynic. Hmmm.
But I thought I was an imaginative, wonder-loving sort of logical cynic!
But I thought I was an imaginative, wonder-loving sort of logical cynic!
What's your talent?
Don't Tell Anyone—Cliff Martinez
Keepin' secrets~
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I like to rant
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I like to rant about things, including ponies
I made a tumblr to rant about things, including ponies
So like
Here's that
criticizing-marshmallows.tumbl…
I made a tumblr to rant about things, including ponies
So like
Here's that
criticizing-marshmallows.tumbl…
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Ill-defined characters are great
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It's really easy to love characters that aren't defined that well in terms of emotion, but that have a few likable moments (and I mean moments, maybe like three four-second periods of likability) and have a nice design. It's so easy. Your brain forms a personality and such for them on impulse; it fills in blanks, essentially, and, of course, in a way you like.
The character doesn't really have hatable qualities, being poorly defined, and they have a nice design and have done a few cool things, so your brain is just like, "dang, this character is lovable."
...
I've been playing a lot of Cave Story (specifically a version resprited with Derpy as the main character, just because; it can be obtained here www.datafilehost.com/download-…) and I suspect I am developing an obsession with the character King. He's wonderful. He looks pissed all the time, wears like a mauve cloak/sweater, has like red Sclera, a facial scar... a sword... and he's like a bunny...
He's just cool.
But his character is basically just--"Nice leader guy who's loyal to his villagers and kind of confrontational."
But like he's great anyways. He has like one great moment. And he gives you a cool weapon.
And just.
Badass, irritable warrior bunny wearing a sweater.
I wasn't really going anywhere with this. He's just cute and cool and the game is good and that's about all I got.
The character doesn't really have hatable qualities, being poorly defined, and they have a nice design and have done a few cool things, so your brain is just like, "dang, this character is lovable."
...
I've been playing a lot of Cave Story (specifically a version resprited with Derpy as the main character, just because; it can be obtained here www.datafilehost.com/download-…) and I suspect I am developing an obsession with the character King. He's wonderful. He looks pissed all the time, wears like a mauve cloak/sweater, has like red Sclera, a facial scar... a sword... and he's like a bunny...
He's just cool.
But his character is basically just--"Nice leader guy who's loyal to his villagers and kind of confrontational."
But like he's great anyways. He has like one great moment. And he gives you a cool weapon.
And just.
Badass, irritable warrior bunny wearing a sweater.
I wasn't really going anywhere with this. He's just cute and cool and the game is good and that's about all I got.
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Valentine's Meme
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Valentines meme taken from Miss-Bow, who took it from GrimmTail.
Because love is interesting.
1: Do you have a crush at the moment?
Not really.
2: Have you ever been deeply in love?
No. (Though I'm not sure if I really believe that's possible for someone who hasn't dated...)
3: Longest relationship you've ever been in?
I think the longest was the time I never dated.
4: Have you ever changed for someone?
Nope.
5: How is your relationship with your ex?
Don't have one.
6: Have you ever been cheated on?
Nope.
7: Have you ever cheated?
Nope.
8: Would you date someone who's well known for cheating?
...No, no, I would think not. I mean. Unless it wasn't supposed to be serious and monogamous.
9: What's the most important part of a relationship?
Acceptance. Followed by honesty.
10: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?
Serious relationships. Flings just feel kind of... strange, to me.
11: When you are dating someone do you believe in going on "breaks"?
No. That's just a mutual self-deception. It's pretty much over. (Unless maybe it's due to one feeling the other is too clingy and is the result of a discussion. And "breaks," is made singular.)
12: How many people have you ever hooked up with?
A whopping zero.
13: What's one thing you regret saying/doing in a previous relationship?
Nothing.
14: What age do you think is appropriate for kids to start having sex?
I'm not too particular, so long as both parties involved are aware of any potential consequences, past the age where it would be physically or psychologically damaging, and consent. And neither one is a jerk.
15: Do you believe in the phrase "age is just a number"?
...Not quite. While I don't think of age as a conceptual barrier in a relationship, it does have undeniable effects that could make it such for an individual.
16: Do you believe in "love at first sight"?
Not at all. It's rather silly, I find.
You can lust at first sight, though, for those of you into the "first sight," thing.
17: Do you believe it's possible to fall in love on the internet?
Yep. Provided significant time and interest.
18: What do you consider a deal breaker?
Intolerance or unacknowledged prejudice.
19: How do you know it's time to end a relationship?
When times regarding it are more often bad than good.
20: Are you currently in a relationship?
In a relationship? Sure. Got plenty of those.
...
Unless you meant a romantic one, in which case no.
21: Do you think people who have dated can stay friends?
Yeah, if both are mature and rational about it.
22: Do you think people should date their friends?
Should? No. "Should," seems a bit strong. But is a bad to? Not at all. I've at least considered or romantically contemplated the nature of most of my friendships. (Albeit very, very briefly for some of them...)
23: How many relationships have you had?
Still zero.
24: Do you think love can last forever?
Ha. No.
That whole death thing gets in the way eventually for most creatures.
25: Do you believe love can conquer all things?
Nope.
26: Would you break up with someone your parents didn't approve of?
No.
27: If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of advice about dating what would it be?
"Maybe try it, dude. Like. Go for it. For learning, if nothing else."
28: Do you think long distance relationships can work?
Depends. If you devote enough time to interaction and you don't need your relationship to be sexual, yeah. That said, it'd take a fair amount of devotion to really maintain a strong romantic relationship over long distances for a long time.
29: What do you notice first about another person?
Appearance. Then tone of voice. Then conversation topic.
But first? Looks. I mean. I can see further than hear.
30: Are you straight, bi, gay or pansexual?
...Pansexual? I think?
I'm interesting in that the body still totally matters. But I can find appeal in almost any gender identity.
31: Would it bother you if your partner suffered from any mental illness?
Not conceptually, the effects of some illnesses certainly might.
32: Have you ever been in an abusive relationship?
No.
33: Do you want to get married one day?
Maybe. I dunno. It's hard to envision, I know that.
34: What do you think about getting your partner's name tattooed?
It's incredibly foolish and naive to believe so strongly in the permanence of a relationship that you're confident a tattoo of your partner's name couldn't turn into just a painful reminder.
35: Could you be in a relationship without sex?
If other means of sating libido were allowed by my hypothetical partner, sure.
36: Are you still a virgin?
Yep!
...Yep.
37: What's more important: Looks or personality?
Personality.
Though. Looks are... well, not close, but...
...
I have really high standards.
38: Do you enjoy love films?
In a sort of cynical, deconstruction sort of way, yes. And sometimes in normal fashion.
Depends on how much I like the "love," and whether it fits my high-standards definition of true love.
39: Have you ever given anyone/received roses?
Nah, man. Roses are silly.
40: Have you ever had a valentine?
Nope.
41: What's your imagination of a "perfect date"?
Huh. Never thought about that.
...
Maybe just hanging out, watching a movie or some videos online, possibly some cuddling...
...Yeah, that sounds nice.
42: Have you ever read "Romeo & Juliet"?
Yes. 9th grade english!
I love it because the stupid teenagers that think they're in love die at the end.
...Spoilers.
43: What's more important: Your partner or your friends?
Um.
UM.
UH-
...MOVING ON THEN-
44: Would you consider yourself "romantic"?
No.
But I kind of am. Just really picky about how I define romance.
45: Could you imagine dating one of your current friends?
Yes. Pretty easily.
Though actually envisioning it happening in details gets weird fast.
46: Have you ever been "friendzoned"?
Nope.
47: Which "famous couple" is your favorite?
Don't have one.
Caring about fame is silly. That's why I barely know any famous couples to try liking!
And totally not because I'm lazy and indifferent towards the popular culture.
48: What's your favorite love song?
"Anything for You," by Ludo.
49: Have you ever broken someone's heart?
HA, no.
Don't think anyone's gotten close enough to be withing striking distance, for that matter.
50: If you're single, why do you think you are?
Mostly because I project myself (and, well, kind of... am,) as strange, philosophical, and sexually deviant.
Which, while an interesting picture, makes me feel kind of weird and not-emotional about things, likely.
And. Also kind of creepy to think about in a sexual context, probably.
And I could certainly care a lot more about my appearance. Like. A lot more.
51: Would you rather date someone who's rich but a douchebag or someone who's poor but a nice guy?
Poor but a nice guy.
Though a rich asshole would be fun to power-struggle with and try to out-asshole, potentially.
Depends on the sincerity of this guy/girl's douchebaggy-ness, I suppose.
52: Are you good at giving other people advice regarding dating/ relationships?
I think so.
I feel oddly good at analyzing emotions and love, for someone so lacking in experience in the area.
53: Are you jealous of couples when you're single?
Yeah. I normally just get a kind of weird hollow feeling when I see them. But if I'm in a bad mood, especially depending on the couple, it can be rather enraging to see a happy couple together.
Or if one of the people is just a terrible person.
54: How important is it to make a relationship official?
Not really at all. All that matters is the opinion and feelings of those involved.
55: Would you consider yourself "clingy", "overly attached" or "jealous"?
Potentially. Potentially, yes.
Though I haven't really tested this.
I may well be internally super-clingy and externally almost detached, in practice.
56: Have you ever "destroyed" a relationship?
Not to my knowledge, no~
57: Do you think it's silly to consider suicide because of a broken heart?
Yes. Completely.
Dude. Love is transient. It can't last forever even if you're faithful to the grave.
While a broken heart sucks, your heart will mend.
Or you'll die naturally from lack of blood flow.
58: Are you the "dominant" or the "submissive" part in a relationship?
I DON'T KNOW. Sincerely. At all.
I could be either, I suspect. Both have appeal.
Though more likely, submissive.
59: Have you ever forgotten important dates like your partner's birthday or your anniversary?
Yes.
I suck at remembering dates.
Though not of importance to a romantic partner, yet, for hopefully obvious reasons.
60: What's your opinion on open relationships?
"Sure why not."
61: Who's more important: Your partner or your family?
Your partner. Theoretically, they ought to be more important as you mature. Though your family is certainly a close second. Depending on your family.
62: How do you define "cheating"?
Violating the boundaries of romantic loyalty you and your partner have established, however loose or tight they may be.
63: Is watching porn while being in a relationship inappropriate?
So long as both parties know and are okay with it, not at all. Hell, do it together. Comment on it.
Be like, "Man, that actor/character is attractive," or debate it out according to aesthetic preference.
...
Not inherently, basically.
64: Do you think Valentine's Day is overrated?
Yes. Both as a negative thing and a positive.
It just shouldn't exist or matter, in my opinion. It forces and obligates acts that should be naturally provoked or not happen.
65: Would you consider yourself a "cuddler"?
Yes.
YES.
Because love is interesting.
1: Do you have a crush at the moment?
Not really.
2: Have you ever been deeply in love?
No. (Though I'm not sure if I really believe that's possible for someone who hasn't dated...)
3: Longest relationship you've ever been in?
I think the longest was the time I never dated.
4: Have you ever changed for someone?
Nope.
5: How is your relationship with your ex?
Don't have one.
6: Have you ever been cheated on?
Nope.
7: Have you ever cheated?
Nope.
8: Would you date someone who's well known for cheating?
...No, no, I would think not. I mean. Unless it wasn't supposed to be serious and monogamous.
9: What's the most important part of a relationship?
Acceptance. Followed by honesty.
10: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?
Serious relationships. Flings just feel kind of... strange, to me.
11: When you are dating someone do you believe in going on "breaks"?
No. That's just a mutual self-deception. It's pretty much over. (Unless maybe it's due to one feeling the other is too clingy and is the result of a discussion. And "breaks," is made singular.)
12: How many people have you ever hooked up with?
A whopping zero.
13: What's one thing you regret saying/doing in a previous relationship?
Nothing.
14: What age do you think is appropriate for kids to start having sex?
I'm not too particular, so long as both parties involved are aware of any potential consequences, past the age where it would be physically or psychologically damaging, and consent. And neither one is a jerk.
15: Do you believe in the phrase "age is just a number"?
...Not quite. While I don't think of age as a conceptual barrier in a relationship, it does have undeniable effects that could make it such for an individual.
16: Do you believe in "love at first sight"?
Not at all. It's rather silly, I find.
You can lust at first sight, though, for those of you into the "first sight," thing.
17: Do you believe it's possible to fall in love on the internet?
Yep. Provided significant time and interest.
18: What do you consider a deal breaker?
Intolerance or unacknowledged prejudice.
19: How do you know it's time to end a relationship?
When times regarding it are more often bad than good.
20: Are you currently in a relationship?
In a relationship? Sure. Got plenty of those.
...
Unless you meant a romantic one, in which case no.
21: Do you think people who have dated can stay friends?
Yeah, if both are mature and rational about it.
22: Do you think people should date their friends?
Should? No. "Should," seems a bit strong. But is a bad to? Not at all. I've at least considered or romantically contemplated the nature of most of my friendships. (Albeit very, very briefly for some of them...)
23: How many relationships have you had?
Still zero.
24: Do you think love can last forever?
Ha. No.
That whole death thing gets in the way eventually for most creatures.
25: Do you believe love can conquer all things?
Nope.
26: Would you break up with someone your parents didn't approve of?
No.
27: If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of advice about dating what would it be?
"Maybe try it, dude. Like. Go for it. For learning, if nothing else."
28: Do you think long distance relationships can work?
Depends. If you devote enough time to interaction and you don't need your relationship to be sexual, yeah. That said, it'd take a fair amount of devotion to really maintain a strong romantic relationship over long distances for a long time.
29: What do you notice first about another person?
Appearance. Then tone of voice. Then conversation topic.
But first? Looks. I mean. I can see further than hear.
30: Are you straight, bi, gay or pansexual?
...Pansexual? I think?
I'm interesting in that the body still totally matters. But I can find appeal in almost any gender identity.
31: Would it bother you if your partner suffered from any mental illness?
Not conceptually, the effects of some illnesses certainly might.
32: Have you ever been in an abusive relationship?
No.
33: Do you want to get married one day?
Maybe. I dunno. It's hard to envision, I know that.
34: What do you think about getting your partner's name tattooed?
It's incredibly foolish and naive to believe so strongly in the permanence of a relationship that you're confident a tattoo of your partner's name couldn't turn into just a painful reminder.
35: Could you be in a relationship without sex?
If other means of sating libido were allowed by my hypothetical partner, sure.
36: Are you still a virgin?
Yep!
...Yep.
37: What's more important: Looks or personality?
Personality.
Though. Looks are... well, not close, but...
...
I have really high standards.
38: Do you enjoy love films?
In a sort of cynical, deconstruction sort of way, yes. And sometimes in normal fashion.
Depends on how much I like the "love," and whether it fits my high-standards definition of true love.
39: Have you ever given anyone/received roses?
Nah, man. Roses are silly.
40: Have you ever had a valentine?
Nope.
41: What's your imagination of a "perfect date"?
Huh. Never thought about that.
...
Maybe just hanging out, watching a movie or some videos online, possibly some cuddling...
...Yeah, that sounds nice.
42: Have you ever read "Romeo & Juliet"?
Yes. 9th grade english!
I love it because the stupid teenagers that think they're in love die at the end.
...Spoilers.
43: What's more important: Your partner or your friends?
Um.
UM.
UH-
...MOVING ON THEN-
44: Would you consider yourself "romantic"?
No.
But I kind of am. Just really picky about how I define romance.
45: Could you imagine dating one of your current friends?
Yes. Pretty easily.
Though actually envisioning it happening in details gets weird fast.
46: Have you ever been "friendzoned"?
Nope.
47: Which "famous couple" is your favorite?
Don't have one.
Caring about fame is silly. That's why I barely know any famous couples to try liking!
And totally not because I'm lazy and indifferent towards the popular culture.
48: What's your favorite love song?
"Anything for You," by Ludo.
49: Have you ever broken someone's heart?
HA, no.
Don't think anyone's gotten close enough to be withing striking distance, for that matter.
50: If you're single, why do you think you are?
Mostly because I project myself (and, well, kind of... am,) as strange, philosophical, and sexually deviant.
Which, while an interesting picture, makes me feel kind of weird and not-emotional about things, likely.
And. Also kind of creepy to think about in a sexual context, probably.
And I could certainly care a lot more about my appearance. Like. A lot more.
51: Would you rather date someone who's rich but a douchebag or someone who's poor but a nice guy?
Poor but a nice guy.
Though a rich asshole would be fun to power-struggle with and try to out-asshole, potentially.
Depends on the sincerity of this guy/girl's douchebaggy-ness, I suppose.
52: Are you good at giving other people advice regarding dating/ relationships?
I think so.
I feel oddly good at analyzing emotions and love, for someone so lacking in experience in the area.
53: Are you jealous of couples when you're single?
Yeah. I normally just get a kind of weird hollow feeling when I see them. But if I'm in a bad mood, especially depending on the couple, it can be rather enraging to see a happy couple together.
Or if one of the people is just a terrible person.
54: How important is it to make a relationship official?
Not really at all. All that matters is the opinion and feelings of those involved.
55: Would you consider yourself "clingy", "overly attached" or "jealous"?
Potentially. Potentially, yes.
Though I haven't really tested this.
I may well be internally super-clingy and externally almost detached, in practice.
56: Have you ever "destroyed" a relationship?
Not to my knowledge, no~
57: Do you think it's silly to consider suicide because of a broken heart?
Yes. Completely.
Dude. Love is transient. It can't last forever even if you're faithful to the grave.
While a broken heart sucks, your heart will mend.
Or you'll die naturally from lack of blood flow.
58: Are you the "dominant" or the "submissive" part in a relationship?
I DON'T KNOW. Sincerely. At all.
I could be either, I suspect. Both have appeal.
Though more likely, submissive.
59: Have you ever forgotten important dates like your partner's birthday or your anniversary?
Yes.
I suck at remembering dates.
Though not of importance to a romantic partner, yet, for hopefully obvious reasons.
60: What's your opinion on open relationships?
"Sure why not."
61: Who's more important: Your partner or your family?
Your partner. Theoretically, they ought to be more important as you mature. Though your family is certainly a close second. Depending on your family.
62: How do you define "cheating"?
Violating the boundaries of romantic loyalty you and your partner have established, however loose or tight they may be.
63: Is watching porn while being in a relationship inappropriate?
So long as both parties know and are okay with it, not at all. Hell, do it together. Comment on it.
Be like, "Man, that actor/character is attractive," or debate it out according to aesthetic preference.
...
Not inherently, basically.
64: Do you think Valentine's Day is overrated?
Yes. Both as a negative thing and a positive.
It just shouldn't exist or matter, in my opinion. It forces and obligates acts that should be naturally provoked or not happen.
65: Would you consider yourself a "cuddler"?
Yes.
YES.
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If you write a self-insert...
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...Don't do it ironically, don't hide that you did it or for what reason, and basically write it as earnestly as you can.
Here's my attempt. I wrote it because I told my brother I would and I had a crush on Discord at the time. It continues to amuse me that apparently none of my readers have figured out that it IS, in fact, a self insert, or at least not stated it. Because. I dunno, I suppose that a human-in-Equestria story with an immediately formed romance between the human and an arguably central character is too subtle.
www.fimfiction.net/story/36478…
And with this journal, I continue my attempts to destroy any lingering vestiges of shame that may hide within me.
Here's my attempt. I wrote it because I told my brother I would and I had a crush on Discord at the time. It continues to amuse me that apparently none of my readers have figured out that it IS, in fact, a self insert, or at least not stated it. Because. I dunno, I suppose that a human-in-Equestria story with an immediately formed romance between the human and an arguably central character is too subtle.
www.fimfiction.net/story/36478…
And with this journal, I continue my attempts to destroy any lingering vestiges of shame that may hide within me.
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